Popular culture

Popular culture seems to idolize a certain way of living. As I listened to “Pop That Pussy” by 2 Live Crew, I couldn’t help but notice the themes: open sex, partying hard, doing drugs, and living without limits. The message is clear—freedom means indulgence. In another one of their songs, “Banned in the USA,” the group pushes back against censorship, arguing that their lyrics are misunderstood and not meant to promote violence or disrespect toward women. They claim to be simply expressing pleasure and freedom in a new era, pushing against the morals of those who don’t understand—likely white, conservative America. Hearing those lyrics made me reflect on the current state of popular culture, especially from my perspective as a middle-class white guy in my early twenties. Today, in much of rap, movies, and TikTok, there’s this ever-present sense that to be “free” is to act on every desire. If you want to fuck, you fuck. If you want to do drugs, you do them. If you want to party and lose ...

June 13

 I remember standing there hurting. I had just called another agent by the wrong name and she had ignored my question after. 

The day had gone well and I hadn't "messed up" until then. When I did though I felt immense pain, as if I was bad for making a mistake. 

Feels pretty shitty that something like that can ruin a great day but I noticed it. 


I also noticed that I have a hard time leaving a group of people. I want some sort of conclusion, like for example with the girl I like at work. 


I'm wearing my beige shirt and am writing this in the dorms courtyard.


I was wearing my yeezy's, grey shorts, and ll bean polo today when I had my pain moment.

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