The Right Way To Look at The World

I've been watching the first season of The White Lotus and for those unfamiliar with the show, it follows a few rich families as they spend their time at a resort in Hawaii. Each family is massively flawed though one particularly caught my attention due to their conversations. The mother is a CEO of a multinational cooperation, the father is unknown but makes less than her, son is addicted to pornography and screens, and daughter is a drug addict with insane jealousy issues. They all have different ideas of what is right and voice them often. The daughter has a black friend who she brought, who both share the idea that "it's time for the white man to step aside" which is contrary to the mother who feels for her son, saying that it's not his fault and not he's being unfairly ostracized from society. The resort they are staying at used to be native and sacred land but the government and developers didn't care. Some of those natives now work at the hotel. Tha...
Post a Comment

march 15

 I'm drunk, high, and off of some nicotine and I want to see what I'm going to write. 


I feel like part of me has a great disliking for my own character. There is constant judgement about my actions and no sympathy for how I've dealt with things. It feels like everything that is not perfect is terrible and one action defines me as a character. I could have a great night but one comment completely derails and invalidates all other actions taken that night. 


The fact that I am juggling 2 jobs and a full schedule of school doesn't even cross my mind. The only thing that does is the mistakes I made in those jobs, or in school. Any little mistake just lingers.


Part of me thinks this is how it is. The mind goes to dark places to force you to become a better version of yourself, but another part of me believes that this forcement should come naturally and with some sort of grace instead of self-hatred/doubt.

Comments

Post a Comment