April 25 (forgot to post)
Day in and day out the thought most prevalent in my brain is “am I doing the right thing”. In theory this should be a good way to approach life, however the amount of anxiety this little question I always ask has created is innumerable. Should I go ask this girl out? Are you gonna do it right? You didn’t do it right. My mind has it’s own view on right which is often observed by how others but especially those online act. If I’m not smooth enough or feel like I have good enough a conversation I get down on myself. I feel like a failure because I’ve seen people do better. It prevents me from trying new things, and being present with everyday life. Even when I’m relaxing I feel stressed because I should be doing something, since that’s the right thing to do.