trying

Something that comes up often in my life is the idea of trying. In sales I see this and "trying" to convince someone to work with you. In a relationship I see it as the same. And to me it always raises the question "is it worth trying?". 

From my experience, the more I try the more I push things away and feel bad about myself. Typically I'm trying in hopes of gaining something and not necessarily benefiting the other party. Then it again that could be my own disposition that thinks low of myself because I would be a good friend, boyfriend, or business connection. 

The issue for me is believing that–and I think that has to start with understanding who I strive to be. 

Realistically that's been my issue. I've been able to understand how to go out and sell something, it's just that their has to be belief behind the product. For me, I'm not sure of what I'm selling and I don't know if the change has to come from the mindset or from the product. 

Thought: Do I change in hopes of aligning with my true self or do I embrace my current situation as my reality.