The Right Way To Look at The World

I've been watching the first season of The White Lotus and for those unfamiliar with the show, it follows a few rich families as they spend their time at a resort in Hawaii. Each family is massively flawed though one particularly caught my attention due to their conversations. The mother is a CEO of a multinational cooperation, the father is unknown but makes less than her, son is addicted to pornography and screens, and daughter is a drug addict with insane jealousy issues. They all have different ideas of what is right and voice them often. The daughter has a black friend who she brought, who both share the idea that "it's time for the white man to step aside" which is contrary to the mother who feels for her son, saying that it's not his fault and not he's being unfairly ostracized from society. The resort they are staying at used to be native and sacred land but the government and developers didn't care. Some of those natives now work at the hotel. Tha...
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Oct 16

 I'm going to practice using fewer "I"s and "I'm"s so this might be rough.


Yesterday, I had to complete a CPR class for my job. As I walked into the classroom I immediately noticed someone I knew from work and a club I was in. We chatted a bit and then class began. A few minutes in the door opens and another co-worker walks in, who just like the last was also in the same club. This guy is a little more outgoing and loud. I'm not sure how it started but pretty soon I was unable to control my laughter and neither was the late coworker. We were both squirming in our seats and every slight glance we made towards each other triggered another explosion of laughter. Pretty soon the instructors began to get upset and told us to be mature which sobered me up a bit. Then came the part where we had to give each other fake CPR which as you can imagine didn't help the situation. Eventually, we made it to the end and passed the class thankfully.

In the past, having the attention on me as the instructor scolded me might have triggered some deep-rooted shame, but I honestly couldn't care less. I told him I was sorry and that I was trying not to and that was all. I don't think I've laughed at anything that hard since high school 4-5 years ago. It was very refreshing.


I started sleeping with this girl who I was friends with last year. It's been pretty bland and we can't seem to communicate well at all. After the first time we slept together I wouldn't have been surprised if we never talked again. It was a little awkward and afterward, we didn't talk openly or anything. We haven't even talked about what we want from the relationship, instead we talk about surface-level things. We did sleep together again afterward so I was wrong with my assumptions. I think we are both pretty emotionally withdrawn so maybe we can work on it together. 




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