Oct 29

 I'm having a mini panic attack, it started when I noticed the funds in my bank account. I often get a feeling of despair when I think of money but this time the feeling has persisted long and has led to lots of spiraling thoughts that I can't seem to shake. 

I just want to sleep but my brain has painted a very gross picture of the world in my mind and it's left me feeling hopeless. I feel like if I ask for help from my parents I'm hurting them. I want to do it all on my own. 

Thinking about money makes me scared, distressed, and hopeless.