August 16th

 I took a break from writing my thoughts online but felt the urge to write something because I'm starting to nail down critical info. 

The root of my problem seems to lie with my inability to trust others. I've been betrayed by people I trusted when I was younger and although I can't pinpoint the exact moment, the switch has been flipped for a long time. This has led to internalizing stress and hatred and acting like nothing was wrong. If I tell someone I fear they will hurt me more or leave. I have built a very strong barrier that I have yet to conquer. 

I think a therapist can help with this but Ideally I would love to get over it with some of my friends.