letting go and some concerns I have
Recently I've been practicing letting go which is basically the practice of sitting with emotions and letting them pass. Typically when this starts it's difficult because you have a lot of suppressed emotions over the years which sit inside of you. So the last few weeks when I wake up and before bed I sit and feel my body and any uncomfortable sensations that arise. During the day when I notice I'm having a lot of negative thoughts, instead of reading into them too much I feel my body and which emotion is making those thoughts arise.
It's a very interesting practice that I feel has propelled my life in the right direction like no other practice has. I feel like I have more energy around people and with life things. I'm optimistic about my experiences and relationships.
Certain doubts come up like, is the version of me who has let go and being more free truly myself or am I just acting positive. Cause I truly want to be friends with everyone and it feels like I should be picking sides. When I say that I mean in terms of beliefs and political views. Right now I can very easily build relationships with both republicans and democrats yet I feel like I'm not being congruent with who I am if I continue this. I feel like I'm not living for an idea or ideal which makes me think people wont like me. I guess that's always been the story I've told myself though. I've always wanted to be a way so that everyone would like me. I might just be my way and see what happens.
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