experiment with anger.

 This post is in two parts. The first will discuss my interpretation of the justified anger debate and the other will be a free flow of ideas regarding the emotion of anger. To start lets examine how anger shows up. For me it's energy in the middle region and spread throughout the body. It's thoughts of events that replay over and over again. It's the debate you have in your head of wrongness and rightness. You will meticulously retrieve every piece of information you can remember to change the story and "win" the argument with yourself. It's restlessness, inability to sleep that can spiral into motivational energy. The type of energy you want at the beginning of a soccer match. The type that gets you so hyped you don't give a shit what anyone else does or says you are going to be flowing. The ladder is the anger I want to channel instead of this somewhat uncontrolled and inconsistent rage I feel towards recent events.  I got a little off topic so lets go ...
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porn and love

 I've found myself watching more porn recently than I want to. Every time I finish I have a little shame attack. I feel like by watching it I'm actively ruining my life. 

My mindset recently has been to try and avoid obsessing over things which will hopefully lead me to detach and actually bring them into my life. When I watch porn I feel like I'm doing the opposite. I'm glorifying sex and women for myself which makes it difficult to talk to them in person. 

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