horny and confused

I don't get it. Am I suppose to jack off into perpetuity? This force of nature causes a deep mix of emotions for me. Friends turn into people I want to fuck, people I shouldn't fuck, turn into people I want to fuck. 

All I want is some consistency in thought but every moment changes my perception. When I nut my perception switches. I get into relationships to have consistent sex. Group interactions become emotional latches to women I'm attracted too. It becomes a competition with the guys and a game with the women. I can never tell if they like me.

I don't know if somethings wrong with me. I'm tired trying to fix myself.